The semester is beginning and I'm forcing myself to get ready (thank God omicron delayed the start by 5 days) but neither my head nor heart are in it. I feel like I have a split personality -- absolutely conflicted. I feel two polar opposite ways. I'm managing pretty well and simultaneously I am totally not doing OK. I keep thinking of yin and yang, which I teach as spirit/matter. The symbol resonates with me but that description is inadequate.